at dawn

how enduring, how we need durability.
the sky before sunrise is soaked with light.
rosy color tints buildings, bridges, and the seine.
i was here when she, with whom i walk, wasn’t born yet
and the cities on a distant plain stood intact
before they rose in the air with the dust of sepulchral brick
and the people who lived there didn’t know.
only this moment at dawn is real to me.
the bygone lives are like my own past life, uncertain.
i cast a spell on the city asking it to last.

czeslaw milosz

october 2014

yet what is perpetually present, what it is therefore permissible to love, is the very possibility of misfortune. the three facets of our being are always exposed to it. our flesh is fragile; any piece of matter in motion can pierce it, tear it, smash it, or derange forever one of our internal mechanisms. our soul is vulnerable, subset to depression without cause, pitiably dependent on all manner of things and being which are in their turn fragile and capricious. our social self on which the feeling of our existence practically depends is always and entirely exposed to every possible hazard. the center of our being is bound to those three things with fibers so tender that it feels their wounds, to the point of bleeding. what diminishes or destroys our social prestige, especially our right to consideration, seems to alter or abolish our very essence, so much so that illusion is our very substance

—simone weil

october 2014

septembrr 2014

a warm human plumpness settled down in his brain. his brain yielded. perfume of embraces all him assailed. with hunger flesh obscurely, he mutely craved to adore. perfumed bodies, warm, full. all kissed, yielded: in deep summer fields, tangled pressed grass, in trickling hallways of tenements, along sofas, creaking beds

—james joyce, ulysses

augusts 2014

the sailor was tied to a line that looped beneath the vessel, thrown overboard on one side of the ship, and dragged under the ship’s keel, either from one side of the ship to the other, or the length of the ship (from bow to stern). As the hull was usually covered in barnacles and other marine growth, if the offender was pulled quickly, keelhauling would typically result in serious cuts, loss of limbs and even decapitation. If the victim was dragged slowly, his weight might lower him sufficiently to miss the barnacles, but this method would frequently result in his drowning👏
september 2014

september 2014